I smoked my last cigarette...amazing after nearly 35 years of sucking on the unlit end of a paper tube filled with some chemical configuration that can conceivably kill you and which can take hold of your existence, your every minute of consciousness and bind you so tightly you struggle for breath.
Yeah, that love affair is over. Whew.
And, so, is another.
Details? You won't get them here...not for a while, actually. There is a court case ensuing and the better of me knows the value of "loose lips sink ships". Well, loose lips are at fault for many things besides sinking ships, quite honestly. I won't venture much past that for now either. Jeeez, me and my lips. Sinking ships.
Nine months without a cigarette~no desire to look back. Five months into my future~no desire to look back, with the obvious exception of my baby girls. It's all about us now. We are good~we are survivors. Well, I'll teach them that, too.
Love, love, LOVE my girls. And learning to love ME again. (I like her already without the stale stench of smoke) Yay, me.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Time away
So here it is, nearly a week since our return from sunny Florida, and a weeks worth of above normal temperatures while there...
With the lack of summer we had in Chicago, the time in Hollywood was much needed. I couldn't imagine living without a hot sun. I couldn't survive without record heat. My soul requires both~
I'm thinking alot these days of wants and needs. There is a difference, a huge distinction. I wonder when it is that we are suddenly awakened to the separation, and the similarity of them both. How do we know when one will supersede the other? I still have to figure that out.
In the meantime, suffice it to say, I'm learning right now that what I need is definitely along the same lines as what I want. The very basis of happiness depends on our own dedication to achieving it, we can't leave anything to chance.
It's a wonderful life, a beautiful existence on this sphere that we dwell upon. That there is more beyond what we know here has been debated for centuries. Exactly what that is will be revealed at another time. Until then, I'm beginning to become increasingly aware of the current strategies, the aura around us all. There is more to this than most of us will commonly acknowledge. Perhaps we are fearful, in our subconscious? Perhaps we are keenly aware??
I know I am rejuvenated in the memory of the sun, the heat. I'm ready for the winter season to rear it's bitter chill...I have my sights set on spring.
With the lack of summer we had in Chicago, the time in Hollywood was much needed. I couldn't imagine living without a hot sun. I couldn't survive without record heat. My soul requires both~
I'm thinking alot these days of wants and needs. There is a difference, a huge distinction. I wonder when it is that we are suddenly awakened to the separation, and the similarity of them both. How do we know when one will supersede the other? I still have to figure that out.
In the meantime, suffice it to say, I'm learning right now that what I need is definitely along the same lines as what I want. The very basis of happiness depends on our own dedication to achieving it, we can't leave anything to chance.
It's a wonderful life, a beautiful existence on this sphere that we dwell upon. That there is more beyond what we know here has been debated for centuries. Exactly what that is will be revealed at another time. Until then, I'm beginning to become increasingly aware of the current strategies, the aura around us all. There is more to this than most of us will commonly acknowledge. Perhaps we are fearful, in our subconscious? Perhaps we are keenly aware??
I know I am rejuvenated in the memory of the sun, the heat. I'm ready for the winter season to rear it's bitter chill...I have my sights set on spring.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Last night's dream is amusingly haunting me...
A few months back, I honored--as usual--the birthday of my late friend, John. The yearly marker normally comes and goes with some kind of eerie connection that I know still exists between us, and this year was no different than those passed. It didn't occur on the actual date of his birth, but shortly thereafter, voila.
There is far too much detail to delve into, should I care to express the specifics. Just suffice it to say that there is a means by which I know he is always with me. Some inconsequential, some point blank obvious, but he makes it known that as I will never forget him, he has not forgotten me.
Now, how do I write, on a blog which encompasses the lives of my two precious daughters, and their father--my husband--about a man who was the most dear and generous friend a girl could ever hope for? That's a question I often found myself having to explain to Jeff, after John's departure. It wasn't easy then, and it doesn't get easier now...but I've expressed to my girls that "Uncle John" was a talent and a timeless friend for the ages. I can only hope that they both will find someone to fill their lives with the unique and unending friendship that he and I found together.
Music fills my heart, it bears burden, it shares joy. In John's expression of his soul through music, he exposed his very core in a melodic and temperate tone. Notes of high and low, he played them all and created a cucoon in which he cared for his sons, his parents, and his sisters and their families. He cared for me in there, too, there was always room for me.
We colored our hair together, listened to music intently for hours on end, we drove each other crazy ocassionally, as well. He was defiant and tenacious, mild and loud. Too loud, never. He played a guitar like no one I've heard before, effectually speaking through it-or as I often described: He could make it sing. He taught me about history I'd only scratched the surface of, and I created boundaries for him that he'd only heard of, prior. Somethings were better left unspoken, to coin a popular lyric from the times.
Sometimes, a relationship between a man and a woman CAN be platonic. It can transcend the triviality of dating and physical expression in the usual manner. Sometimes, two people can befriend and confide without the confinement or pressure of a romantic interlude. John and I captured that, we abolished the stereotype that was expected of us. And we gained, in spades, from the reciprocity of late night phone calls after a good "date", or a bad one.
Like two "old ladies", we could chatter and banter for hours on one subject--offering opinion, and heated debate, but culminating to an agreement to consider and respect the the opposing thought. It was like we grew up together, though we didn't meet until well into adulthood.
Girlfriends, boyfriends, they all came and went. They all knew there was a relationship here that would not be strained--nor could tarnish--that of a romance blooming. No matter which of us found ourselves in the midst of a "Mr./Ms. Wonderful Wonderful" scenario, all parties concerned understood that John and Camille were a team, and nothing could alter that state. He embraced every date that I brought to see him perform, and I welcomed all the girls that he would invite to a performance, often sitting with them while he played. It was perfect harmony on so many levels.
And then one bitter January day, he stopped answering his phone after a series of brief calls. Frightening phone calls where he indicated a terribly heavy pain in his chest. I rushed to his apartment and with the aid of a friend, entered through the back gate. The worst fear imaginable came true, and my dearest, most trusted friend was gone. I was alone, I was devastated, I was cold, and I was heartbroken. John was dead at 45 years young.
He left his two sons--his pride and joy--to grow up without a father. His sisters to question his contentment, and his insatiable appetite to belong with someone, to get answers to his unending questions. None of us was the same after that snowfilled night.
Jeff and I had just run into each other the week before John's heart attack. I still had yet to introduce them, and to get the nod of approval from my stand-in big brother. To this day, I will never know the outcome of that introduction. I am consoled that with Jeff, I was capable of waking up the next morning and facing the blindingly bright sky that etched into my weeping heart. I was capable of exhaling and living my life in forward motion. To this day, I question what would have become of me had the cards dealt been off, by even one suit. I am humbled that God cared enough for me to truly open one door, just as another was shut. It is the only way I can surmise the series of events of those few weeks, those passing days following the wake, the funeral, the burial. Brutal, life changing memories.
Last night I was privy to one of those uniquely 'real' dreams. The one where real time conversations occur with those who have left this arena. John was speaking to me on topics at hand, and tying in past encounters in anectdotal fashion. Jennifer's guitar practice, Monika's haircut, Jeff's new bike. It was a hauntingly familiar discussion, two sided, music entrenched. I'll be carrying this one with me for some time to come, as I haven't had one like it in several years. It was soft comfort, solid strength, everlasting satisfaction.
There is far too much detail to delve into, should I care to express the specifics. Just suffice it to say that there is a means by which I know he is always with me. Some inconsequential, some point blank obvious, but he makes it known that as I will never forget him, he has not forgotten me.
Now, how do I write, on a blog which encompasses the lives of my two precious daughters, and their father--my husband--about a man who was the most dear and generous friend a girl could ever hope for? That's a question I often found myself having to explain to Jeff, after John's departure. It wasn't easy then, and it doesn't get easier now...but I've expressed to my girls that "Uncle John" was a talent and a timeless friend for the ages. I can only hope that they both will find someone to fill their lives with the unique and unending friendship that he and I found together.
Music fills my heart, it bears burden, it shares joy. In John's expression of his soul through music, he exposed his very core in a melodic and temperate tone. Notes of high and low, he played them all and created a cucoon in which he cared for his sons, his parents, and his sisters and their families. He cared for me in there, too, there was always room for me.
We colored our hair together, listened to music intently for hours on end, we drove each other crazy ocassionally, as well. He was defiant and tenacious, mild and loud. Too loud, never. He played a guitar like no one I've heard before, effectually speaking through it-or as I often described: He could make it sing. He taught me about history I'd only scratched the surface of, and I created boundaries for him that he'd only heard of, prior. Somethings were better left unspoken, to coin a popular lyric from the times.
Sometimes, a relationship between a man and a woman CAN be platonic. It can transcend the triviality of dating and physical expression in the usual manner. Sometimes, two people can befriend and confide without the confinement or pressure of a romantic interlude. John and I captured that, we abolished the stereotype that was expected of us. And we gained, in spades, from the reciprocity of late night phone calls after a good "date", or a bad one.
Like two "old ladies", we could chatter and banter for hours on one subject--offering opinion, and heated debate, but culminating to an agreement to consider and respect the the opposing thought. It was like we grew up together, though we didn't meet until well into adulthood.
Girlfriends, boyfriends, they all came and went. They all knew there was a relationship here that would not be strained--nor could tarnish--that of a romance blooming. No matter which of us found ourselves in the midst of a "Mr./Ms. Wonderful Wonderful" scenario, all parties concerned understood that John and Camille were a team, and nothing could alter that state. He embraced every date that I brought to see him perform, and I welcomed all the girls that he would invite to a performance, often sitting with them while he played. It was perfect harmony on so many levels.
And then one bitter January day, he stopped answering his phone after a series of brief calls. Frightening phone calls where he indicated a terribly heavy pain in his chest. I rushed to his apartment and with the aid of a friend, entered through the back gate. The worst fear imaginable came true, and my dearest, most trusted friend was gone. I was alone, I was devastated, I was cold, and I was heartbroken. John was dead at 45 years young.
He left his two sons--his pride and joy--to grow up without a father. His sisters to question his contentment, and his insatiable appetite to belong with someone, to get answers to his unending questions. None of us was the same after that snowfilled night.
Jeff and I had just run into each other the week before John's heart attack. I still had yet to introduce them, and to get the nod of approval from my stand-in big brother. To this day, I will never know the outcome of that introduction. I am consoled that with Jeff, I was capable of waking up the next morning and facing the blindingly bright sky that etched into my weeping heart. I was capable of exhaling and living my life in forward motion. To this day, I question what would have become of me had the cards dealt been off, by even one suit. I am humbled that God cared enough for me to truly open one door, just as another was shut. It is the only way I can surmise the series of events of those few weeks, those passing days following the wake, the funeral, the burial. Brutal, life changing memories.
Last night I was privy to one of those uniquely 'real' dreams. The one where real time conversations occur with those who have left this arena. John was speaking to me on topics at hand, and tying in past encounters in anectdotal fashion. Jennifer's guitar practice, Monika's haircut, Jeff's new bike. It was a hauntingly familiar discussion, two sided, music entrenched. I'll be carrying this one with me for some time to come, as I haven't had one like it in several years. It was soft comfort, solid strength, everlasting satisfaction.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Fraulein Dakota HaileysComet
So, I see that it's been nearly a month since my last post...Ellen, I'm sorry! I vow that the lack of interaction from the blogging audience won't hamper my continuity in writing, but it's been a little more hectic than usual around here lately.
We're introducing a new member of our family to our friends these days. On Saturday, May 30, we brought home an eight week old White German Shepherd puppy. Oh the joy! ;-) Yes, the joy!!
She has completely entrenched her way into our hearts, and the girls are beyond thrilled that mom & dad have actually allowed a dog into our lives! She nips, she sits, she drinks, and she devours (her food), all the while making for interesting conversation with all of our neighbors who walk their own canines past our house.
The best part of her break-in period? The crate training is taking place in our swank garage. We've decided to house break her from there, and she has found the peace and comfort of her cage quite appealing. It finally caught on to Jeff that the crate was necessary to her safety after she swallowed a nail/hook thing that she'd pulled off the wall in her first week with us. He is not a fan of the crate, but it's proven it's worth in the last several days alone--thank GOD!
So I rushed her to the vet that fateful Thursday morning after I discovered one of these nails on the floor-and further that their was still another missing from the wall she pulled it off of. Searched the garage, under, in between and above all the items neatly stowed and stored for her well-being, but it wasn't to be found... An hour later and $126.00 for the xray visit, it was nestled in her food stuffed belly.
Now if it had been that the nail was the worst of the danger she faced, I probably still would have been as frightened, but this thing had a hook on the head of it, which, when in the wall, was holding tight the wire of the thermostat to the wall. The vet was concerned, and didn't want to induce Dakota's stomach contents upward through her throat, so we opted for asparagus.
Yep, asparagus.
Apparently, this fibrous vegetable, in all its stringy glory, is a natural means of helping to pull a foreign object from the tummy through the intestines of our four-legged friends. Go figure. So now, rather than surgery, I'm off to market for asparagus to steam and cool, then feed her in a quantity equal to whatever she didn't turn away from.
So the marathon feeding began, and she ate nearly an entire bunch. By that evening, she was still her active and excited puppy-self, but I was horrified of the very real possibility that this nail could puncture her stomach wall, or worse, her intestinal tract. I was awake most of the night, at the ready should she have howled out in some kind of internal pain. Nothing-whew.
The next morning, it was back to the vet for another picture, and voila~the nail is moving outward in the most optimal position to avoid damage! Only two or three inches till exit~I had only to wait it out.
And it came out--with the telltale tarnish and etching from her little tummy acids. It was now in my hand, and she was out of danger. What a breath of relief! I proceeded to scrub my hands, up to my elbows.
Now she's happily confined to her monster cage with the partition which makes her space smaller now, allowing for her rapid growth. And rapid it is already becoming! She cuddles with her towel, her knotted t-shirt, her Kong, and two rawhide bones. The potty training is going more smoothly than when Jennifer was coming out of diapers--but I think Jennifer was just holding on to "baby-hood" for as long as she could. Dakota clearly wants out of "puppy-hood", and will soon be a full grown German Shepherd, as her ancestors before her.
She has a beautiful stance, both ears have now popped "up", and her demeanor is happy and social. We couldn't have asked for a better disposition in a puppy. I am eager to get through the teething stage, and onward to training school--of course, her appointment has already been set for spaying her in early July.
If I can only get Jeff to pick up after her...
We're introducing a new member of our family to our friends these days. On Saturday, May 30, we brought home an eight week old White German Shepherd puppy. Oh the joy! ;-) Yes, the joy!!
She has completely entrenched her way into our hearts, and the girls are beyond thrilled that mom & dad have actually allowed a dog into our lives! She nips, she sits, she drinks, and she devours (her food), all the while making for interesting conversation with all of our neighbors who walk their own canines past our house.
The best part of her break-in period? The crate training is taking place in our swank garage. We've decided to house break her from there, and she has found the peace and comfort of her cage quite appealing. It finally caught on to Jeff that the crate was necessary to her safety after she swallowed a nail/hook thing that she'd pulled off the wall in her first week with us. He is not a fan of the crate, but it's proven it's worth in the last several days alone--thank GOD!
So I rushed her to the vet that fateful Thursday morning after I discovered one of these nails on the floor-and further that their was still another missing from the wall she pulled it off of. Searched the garage, under, in between and above all the items neatly stowed and stored for her well-being, but it wasn't to be found... An hour later and $126.00 for the xray visit, it was nestled in her food stuffed belly.
Now if it had been that the nail was the worst of the danger she faced, I probably still would have been as frightened, but this thing had a hook on the head of it, which, when in the wall, was holding tight the wire of the thermostat to the wall. The vet was concerned, and didn't want to induce Dakota's stomach contents upward through her throat, so we opted for asparagus.
Yep, asparagus.
Apparently, this fibrous vegetable, in all its stringy glory, is a natural means of helping to pull a foreign object from the tummy through the intestines of our four-legged friends. Go figure. So now, rather than surgery, I'm off to market for asparagus to steam and cool, then feed her in a quantity equal to whatever she didn't turn away from.
So the marathon feeding began, and she ate nearly an entire bunch. By that evening, she was still her active and excited puppy-self, but I was horrified of the very real possibility that this nail could puncture her stomach wall, or worse, her intestinal tract. I was awake most of the night, at the ready should she have howled out in some kind of internal pain. Nothing-whew.
The next morning, it was back to the vet for another picture, and voila~the nail is moving outward in the most optimal position to avoid damage! Only two or three inches till exit~I had only to wait it out.
And it came out--with the telltale tarnish and etching from her little tummy acids. It was now in my hand, and she was out of danger. What a breath of relief! I proceeded to scrub my hands, up to my elbows.
Now she's happily confined to her monster cage with the partition which makes her space smaller now, allowing for her rapid growth. And rapid it is already becoming! She cuddles with her towel, her knotted t-shirt, her Kong, and two rawhide bones. The potty training is going more smoothly than when Jennifer was coming out of diapers--but I think Jennifer was just holding on to "baby-hood" for as long as she could. Dakota clearly wants out of "puppy-hood", and will soon be a full grown German Shepherd, as her ancestors before her.
She has a beautiful stance, both ears have now popped "up", and her demeanor is happy and social. We couldn't have asked for a better disposition in a puppy. I am eager to get through the teething stage, and onward to training school--of course, her appointment has already been set for spaying her in early July.
If I can only get Jeff to pick up after her...
Friday, May 15, 2009
Today, I'm melancholy. I checked my stats and it appears no one reads my blog...
:-(
But the upside is that I write what's in my heart-it's therapeutic and relaxing. I appreciate that part of it all, and I'm grateful for the opportunity to even have a vehicle to publish my thoughts on.
I'll keep writing. And as a woman, I'll keep whining about it, too. That's my prerogative.
No spelling errors, either. I just checked.
:-(
But the upside is that I write what's in my heart-it's therapeutic and relaxing. I appreciate that part of it all, and I'm grateful for the opportunity to even have a vehicle to publish my thoughts on.
I'll keep writing. And as a woman, I'll keep whining about it, too. That's my prerogative.
No spelling errors, either. I just checked.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Another Mother's Day...
I read a post by a friend of mine on Facebook this morning, acknowledging that she awoke at 5:00 a.m. today, in tears. After 17 years, she still misses her mother, so.
Reflecting on that message, I still feel the barbs of pain when I think that I lost my mother 21 years ago, and no Mother's Day is an easy celebration in her absence. Of course, the hard-core hurt didn't really hit until I became a Mother myself, but she's always been in my heart since that cold winter day she left us, February 4, 1988.
My daughters have always known that "Nana Jennie" is in Heaven with the Angels. I've told them that they met her and she held them, before they came to me. It's always been sweet comfort to feel the love they share when they talk about her memory with me. At the time we lost her, I had no idea of the love that would eventually come into my life. The absolute joy of holding a precious new life in my arms, cradling their future.
As they grow and their hearts and minds are developing, a funny story that occurred years ago comes to mind. When I was a young teen, my parents & I watched that Joan Crawford movie "Mommy Dearest". I recall being completely appalled at the way that woman treated her children, though as I grew up, I learned that there are too many children who suffer at the hands of parents like that...but I digress.
At the end of the movie, while the credits were rolling, my mom told me to change the channel, and I sarcastically (who ME?) replied, "Yes, mommy dearest". My wonderfully humorous mom then picked up a folded pair of socks from a nearby laundry pile she'd just folded, and threw it at me. Hit me square in the forehead, a perfect shot.
I shared this story with my girls a few years ago after we all caught the tail end of that infamous movie on the telly one evening. When Monika heard the recollection, she locked it into her brain, and uses the phrase anytime she needs to reply to me in her own sarcastic (who HER?) way. I love that she found the laughter in that story, that she gets a piece of who my mother was without ever having physically met her.
My biggest tragedy is in raising my children without Jennie. But my greatest fear of their never knowing her is nipped in the bud with every story I tell them, and every word that they store in their hearts about the incredible woman who raised me. She had her faults, humans usually do. But her memory, her effort, and her frustration with me (who ME?) will never be lost. In Monika & Jennifer, she will carry on. As it should be.
One final note: When I was pregnant with Monika, we toiled over "baby names" for months before deciding upon hers. In wanting to hold my mother close to my first born, I gave her my mom's middle name, Lee. With Jennifer, I decided upon a variation of Jennie so as to give both of my girls the spirit of Jennie Lee. Respectively, they are Monika Lee & Jennifer Marie. I know I've succeeded, as I am reminded daily of her--not only in their names, but in their smiles, their actions, and their love for their own mother. That circle of life thing again, you know?
Reflecting on that message, I still feel the barbs of pain when I think that I lost my mother 21 years ago, and no Mother's Day is an easy celebration in her absence. Of course, the hard-core hurt didn't really hit until I became a Mother myself, but she's always been in my heart since that cold winter day she left us, February 4, 1988.
My daughters have always known that "Nana Jennie" is in Heaven with the Angels. I've told them that they met her and she held them, before they came to me. It's always been sweet comfort to feel the love they share when they talk about her memory with me. At the time we lost her, I had no idea of the love that would eventually come into my life. The absolute joy of holding a precious new life in my arms, cradling their future.
As they grow and their hearts and minds are developing, a funny story that occurred years ago comes to mind. When I was a young teen, my parents & I watched that Joan Crawford movie "Mommy Dearest". I recall being completely appalled at the way that woman treated her children, though as I grew up, I learned that there are too many children who suffer at the hands of parents like that...but I digress.
At the end of the movie, while the credits were rolling, my mom told me to change the channel, and I sarcastically (who ME?) replied, "Yes, mommy dearest". My wonderfully humorous mom then picked up a folded pair of socks from a nearby laundry pile she'd just folded, and threw it at me. Hit me square in the forehead, a perfect shot.
I shared this story with my girls a few years ago after we all caught the tail end of that infamous movie on the telly one evening. When Monika heard the recollection, she locked it into her brain, and uses the phrase anytime she needs to reply to me in her own sarcastic (who HER?) way. I love that she found the laughter in that story, that she gets a piece of who my mother was without ever having physically met her.
My biggest tragedy is in raising my children without Jennie. But my greatest fear of their never knowing her is nipped in the bud with every story I tell them, and every word that they store in their hearts about the incredible woman who raised me. She had her faults, humans usually do. But her memory, her effort, and her frustration with me (who ME?) will never be lost. In Monika & Jennifer, she will carry on. As it should be.
One final note: When I was pregnant with Monika, we toiled over "baby names" for months before deciding upon hers. In wanting to hold my mother close to my first born, I gave her my mom's middle name, Lee. With Jennifer, I decided upon a variation of Jennie so as to give both of my girls the spirit of Jennie Lee. Respectively, they are Monika Lee & Jennifer Marie. I know I've succeeded, as I am reminded daily of her--not only in their names, but in their smiles, their actions, and their love for their own mother. That circle of life thing again, you know?
Monday, May 4, 2009
It's a beautiful Monday morning here...sunshine, mild temperature, and the kids are on the bus to school! Only a few more weeks until the official start of summer, school is out on June 17th. Oh, I can hear the standard whine already: "We're bored"!
I shudder to think of how to fill their time this year. Neither of them did well at the Girl Scout camp I enrolled them in two summers ago. Last year, I couldn't even mention the name, this year, they rolled their eyes at the suggestion. I'm going to keep trying.
We'll be taking the motorhome out more this summer, that's for sure. Weekends away from the daily grind. I concern myself with the same thoughts, however. It takes a week to recover from such an excursion as I have all the laundry to catch up with, all the restocking of necessary items, and the daily in between stuff until the next trip. Can you tell how pleased I am that we even BOUGHT this motorhome?? It was Jeff's grand idea, after all...
But summer is coming, and it is my favorite season. I can't get enough of the sun, and don't even start me on the rising temperatures. 90 degrees in the shade is my idea of bliss! The only trouble I have is dealing with Jeff's need for cold during these dog day months. We're never on the same page when it comes to sleeping comfortably. Ugh...it shouldn't be that in the middle of July, I'm reaching for the down comforter at night. But he's a tub of sweat in the middle of the night and needs the thermostat set at 62 in order to get a full night of slumber.
Oh, the peril of looking ahead. I hope you're eagerly anticipating the coming season, while enjoying the beauty of the one at hand. You know, the spring we're in right now and these few days of sun between those filled with rain? It's all good!
I shudder to think of how to fill their time this year. Neither of them did well at the Girl Scout camp I enrolled them in two summers ago. Last year, I couldn't even mention the name, this year, they rolled their eyes at the suggestion. I'm going to keep trying.
We'll be taking the motorhome out more this summer, that's for sure. Weekends away from the daily grind. I concern myself with the same thoughts, however. It takes a week to recover from such an excursion as I have all the laundry to catch up with, all the restocking of necessary items, and the daily in between stuff until the next trip. Can you tell how pleased I am that we even BOUGHT this motorhome?? It was Jeff's grand idea, after all...
But summer is coming, and it is my favorite season. I can't get enough of the sun, and don't even start me on the rising temperatures. 90 degrees in the shade is my idea of bliss! The only trouble I have is dealing with Jeff's need for cold during these dog day months. We're never on the same page when it comes to sleeping comfortably. Ugh...it shouldn't be that in the middle of July, I'm reaching for the down comforter at night. But he's a tub of sweat in the middle of the night and needs the thermostat set at 62 in order to get a full night of slumber.
Oh, the peril of looking ahead. I hope you're eagerly anticipating the coming season, while enjoying the beauty of the one at hand. You know, the spring we're in right now and these few days of sun between those filled with rain? It's all good!
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